currently unmotivated...

Eh, yeah, I should probably be doing HW right now...

Name: Jess Berryhill
Single or Taken: Definitely Single.
Gender: Female
Birthday: February 4th, 1986
Siblings: 1 brother - Bill - 21 years old
Hair color: Brown
Eye color: Blue
Shoe size: 16 in Women's/14 in Men's
Height: 6'0"

What are you wearing right now: Dress pants and a blue button down shirt
Where do you live: Anderson, IN/Greenfield, IN
Right or left-handed: Right-handed
Who are your closest friends?: There are a number of them, all unique in different ways.
Where is your fav place to shop: Old Navy/Gap, I guess?
Do you have any tattoos or piercings?: No

Faves
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Color: I prefer black, orange, red, blue, and grey.
Number(s): 13/40
Food: I'd take a turkey sandwich any day.
Boy's name: Luke
Girl's Name: I don't really like girl's names
Subject in school: English and Psychology
Animal: Dogs and Squirrels
Drink: Dr. Pepper = My weakness.
Celebrity: Patrick Dempsey...fracking hot.
Sport: Basketball
Veggie: Corn
Fruit: Pineapple
Fast food place: Panera
Place to visit: Maine, Utah, Boston
Month: October
Juice: Orange Juice is definitely one of my favorite beverages.
Breakfast: Favorite meal of the day for sure. Scrambled Eggs, Toast...
Favorite cartoon character: Doug, hands down.

Have You Ever
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Given anyone a bath: My little nephew.
Smoked: No, definitely not.
Bungee jumped: No, again definitely not ever.
Broken the law: Speed limits...
Eaten a dog biscuit: Ew. Who would do that?
Put your tongue on a frozen pole: Pretended to during the "Blizzard" of '07.
Loved someone that made you cry?: Yeah.
Been in a physical fight: Only with my brother as kids.
Been on a plane: Yes, many times.
Been in a sauna: Ew, I don't like to be hot.
Been in a hot tub: Yes, but I am not a fan. Too hot.
Swam in the ocean: Yeah, it's alright...
Fallen asleep in school: Yes.
Laughed so hard you fell off your chair: Maybe not fallen off the chair but definitely laughing uncontrollably.
Saved e-mails: Yeah, the important ones.
Wished you were someone else: Probably not.
Wished you were a member of the opposite sex: No
Done something you regret?: Yeah, there are a few things.

First Thing That Comes to Mind
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Red: Red Sweater. Ha...
Blue: Sky
Happy: Being in good company.
Autumn: Leaves
Cow: Cow tipping.
Greenland: Not so green.

Your good luck charm: None really.
Stupidest thing you have ever done: I can think of a few things....
Your most prized possession: Friends
Last thing you ate: Linguini
Song: You're Everything - DC*B.
Thing that has happened to you this year: Got to know my little nephew.
Chicken pox: Yep, kindergarten...
Stitches: Nope. Thank goodness, I'd probably cry.
Bloody nose: A few when I was younger. Randomly every once in awhile as an adult.

Do you...

Believe in love at first sight: No.
Enjoy parks: Yes.
Like picnics: Yep.
Like school: Love it!
What schools have you gone to:
~Oaklandon Elementary (1st-5th)
~Fall Creek Valley Middle School (6th-8th)
~Lawrence North High School (Kindergarten & 9th)
~Greenfield-Central High School (10th-12th)
~Anderson University (2004-2009, I am about to graduate

Who is the last person that called you: Kelley
Makes you laugh the most: Currently, Amber & T
Makes you smile: Many people.
Can make you feel better no matter what: A few of my professors.
You talked to last: The rents.

Do You/Are You...

Do you like yourself: Sometimes.
Do you get along with your family: Eh...
Color your hair?: Nope, never have.
Obsessive: Um, with some things...
Compulsive: Not so much.

yac.

C.S. Lewis, William James, and a prayer

I found these passages interesting. From C.S. Lewis's The Problem of Pain:

"But if suffering is good, ought it not to be pursued rather than avoided? I answer that suffering is not good in itself. What is good in any painful experience is, for the sufferer, his submission to the will of God, and, for the spectators, the compassion aroused and the acts of mercy to which it leads."

"Our Father refreshes us on the journey with some pleasant inns, but will not encourage us to mistake them for home."

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From William James's The Varieties of Religious Experience:

"Peace cannot be reached by the simple addition of pluses and elimination of minuses from life."

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God,

Fill in the cracks of my brokenness. Open my eyes to see your presence evident in my life.

Amen.

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yac.

brokenness.

Some days this is apparent more than others. This has been an entire week like that. My inadequacies have been glaringly present. My shortcomings have been highlighted by myself and by others.

What now?

yac.

Here I Am

I am sitting in bed, typing this on my iPod. It's 1:32 a.m. I have decided that rejection is probably one of the hardest things for me to handle. I applied to three graduate programs and have been rejected by two out of three of them. It took such a leap of faith to finally decide to commit to Psychology fully and now I am starting to question my decision, even though I believe strongly that it was the right one.

I think God will open up opportunities for me. Let's hope at least. Now to try and sleep?

yac

And yet...

I should be doing homework...and yet, here I am blogging. It's been long and arduous three or four weeks. It's all been a blur really.

Honestly, I feel as if I am stuck between being lost and being found....having no clue who I am as person and yet feeling more direction than I have in a long time.... As if I am on the brink of disaster or something huge... The pendulum has yet to decide which way it will swing. It has me frazzled to be honest.

God has been working in many ways in my life, and for that, I am grateful.

My prayer this week:

God, help me be a reflection of your light. Help me continue to pursue You with a sense of desperation that leads to a humble reliance on You.

Amen.

yac.

Are We Human or Are We Dancer?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6r4KT8-VX0

Dare You to Move....

This has been on repeat on the IPod for about a month now. In fact, I have only been listening to three songs. This song speaks to me on so many different levels.

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Switchfoot
"Dare You to Move"

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?

Chorus:
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

[Chorus]

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

[Chorus]